I didn’t expect to struggle after baby. But I did. Hard. He had a few minor health issues in the beginning, and although he was okay, I realized quickly that our little man wasn’t invincible.
Which I couldn’t accept.
I needed to protect him, so I grew anxious over everything: who touched him, where he went, what he ate, how he slept, what sorts of germs might lurk in his vicinity. It was painful, and I felt crazy.
Then I learned this is a thing — postpartum anxiety (PPA). And it’s actually really common. It’s just that nobody talks about it.
Until one friend did.
Similar fears consumed her with baby #1, and she let me know. She also said I’d feel normal again. I held on so tightly to those words — they carried me through.
Today, it’s my passion to talk about this stuff. I was lucky to have that friend, and I know that not everyone does.
But it goes beyond postpartum anxiety
Being a new mama without postpartum anxiety can be really freakin’ hard, too. Not many people talk about that either.
Many of us feel guilty: A baby is a gift, and we need to be grateful. And that’s true. But it doesn’t mean being a mama is never challenging, and that we can’t be real with each other.
After all, when we’re not real we just promote isolation — allow one another to feel alone in random mom fears, or in living a life that doesn’t assemble into some beautiful mosaic for Instagram.
But guess what, new mama? We all go through the tough stuff — it’s all part of this glorious gig.
I’m hoping this blog will share the stories that prove it.
So hey new mama, can we talk?