Anxious Mama

Hey new mama, can we talk?

I didn’t expect to struggle after baby. But I did. Hard. He had a few minor health issues in the beginning, and although he was okay, I realized quickly that our little man wasn’t invincible.

Which I couldn’t accept.

I needed to protect him, so I grew anxious over everything: who touched him, where he went, what he ate, how he slept, what sorts of germs might lurk in his vicinity. It was painful, and I felt crazy.

Then I learned this is a thing — postpartum anxiety (PPA). And it’s actually really common. It’s just that nobody talks about it.

Until one friend did.

Similar fears consumed her with baby #1, and she let me know. She also said I’d feel normal again. I held on so tightly to those words — they carried me through.

Today, it’s my passion to talk about this stuff. I was lucky to have that friend, and I know that not everyone does.

But it goes beyond postpartum anxiety

Being a new mama without postpartum anxiety can be really freakin’ hard, too. Not many people talk about that either.

Many of us feel guilty: A baby is a gift, and we need to be grateful. And that’s true. But it doesn’t mean being a mama is never challenging, and that we can’t be real with each other.

After all, when we’re not real we just promote isolation — allow one another to feel alone in random mom fears, or in living a life that doesn’t assemble into some beautiful mosaic for Instagram.

But guess what, new mama? We all go through the tough stuff — it’s all part of this glorious gig.

I’m hoping this blog will share the stories that prove it.

So hey new mama, can we talk?

4 comments

  1. I struggled with postpartum anxiety and had severe postpartum OCD after my first child. I struggled with terrible thoughts, which I knew wasn’t me. It took years to finally be in a good place once again. I’m in a mental health nurse practitioner program in hopes to help women who struggle with the same things I did. I’ve found that most don’t have a true appreciation for their mental health until they experience a distressing mental health crisis firsthand. Thank you for sharing your experience and shedding some much needed light on this topic. Wonderfully written!

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    1. I’m so sorry for the late reply! Thank you so much for reaching out, for the kind words and for sharing your story. I can definitely relate. I love that you’re hoping to help women who struggle with the same things! It’s inspiring. Wishing you all the best with your program!

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